The End

This time of year is always very hard for me.  The finality of another year being over always makes me sad.  It is kind of fitting that my side of the family always has our big holiday celebration on new years.  It helps me ignore the end of the year!  I get busy gettting ready for company (at mom's house) and after Christmas sales and forget that yet another year has passed.  When I do start to take stock of what the year has meant, I start to feel sad.  I think about all of the things I didn't get done (like that ever illusive degree), and the people that we've lost, and the time lost.  It is silly to think like this though, I should be thinking instead about:  the accomplishments that my children have made (a has learned to read! and write!) (and @ is talking up a storm).  Just getting all of us through another year is a point for me, being a full time mom is way more challenging than I ever thought it would be.  I also need to think about all of the time that I spent, doing great things, dancing, and singing, and playing, and smiling, and spreading love.  I have volunteered a ton this year and loved almost every second of it, and I just plain forget about it...it is on the schedual so I have to do it, but I wouldnt have to and I did it anyway.  I need to focus on the fact that my kids have decent clothes to wear everyday, and not that I didn't do as much laundry as I should have.  I'm learning to see things more half full, and less almost gone.  I love my life, and my family.  Happy NEW YEAR!